i didn't realize that i've been away from words for so long until last week. this morning i layed in bed going over exactly why i left. it still makes sense, but slowly but surely i'm feeling the need to write return.

no longer am i giving my all to my job. i'm realizing that if my clients are smart enough to record an album or make a movie, then they're smart enough to figure out some of the problems that go along with it on their own. it's not my job to know ALL of the answers. i'm just here to manufacture their CDs. switching my way of thinking at work is freeing up so much needed energy and i no longer have so much negativity built up in me.

now that i don't really manage chris as much as i did, i no longer have to concentrate on the business aspect and i can switch back to creative thinking mode. i miss letting my mind wander in that direction.

i'm also seeking inspiration from different experiences/places. i'm going to stay away from the venues (but not as much) and i'm going to visit more galleries and museums. i'm going to take dance lessons and more day trips with & without the kids just for the hell of it. i'm going to try and be more spontanious and not as structured. i'm going to try and wear more colors and prints. (although the prints may be black & white to start .) i'm going to devour more books. i'm going to wear my hair down more and try and remember to put on my lip gloss. i'm going to buy roller skates and roller skate in the park with my kids. i'm going to try and be more open. i'm going to start writing agin.

Follow through.

mrs. whisper - it is in motion! i cannot begin to explain how excited i am and how absolutely freeing this 'knowing' feels.

god is good.

Admit it, I inspire you. Haha. The invitations for your event look great. Had me on my Sleepy Brown. Can't wait, can't wait.

mrs. whisper. you do inspire me.