So I initially came downstairs this morning to jump on my laptop and get into a blog of some sort. I wound up commenting on a bunch of posts before I even got to mine. Hahahahaha.

I just really wanted to thank all of the women who participated in the tea last evening. I actually feel increasingly blessed that I'm able to provide this type of atmosphere for those who I invite into my home. I was apprehensive at first concerning having an event for just women. However, I'm discovering more and more how my mouthpiece and overall nature is effective in more than one forum.

It's like the same reasons I have The Women's Tea are the same reasons that I spit. I really want for us as a people to progress and I feel that we can not do that without being open and honest with ourselves and with others. Sometimes we just have to tell things as they are, just be frank. I don't pull punches when I get up to spit. However, in the atmosphere of the tea I am able to provide a much more nurturing side of myself that I am not able to do from the stage. It also enables me to be seen in a new light, as an equal instead of that admirational almost star struck manner in which some tend to view poets due to our ability to verbalize in such a manner. When I step on stage it almost becomes as if I'm rallying a people to do battle. In either forum I am a Goddess don't be mistaken. Yet I feel there is a time and a place for everything and for me the stage is not that place.

I feel as if I'm growing exponentially as a person. Free usta get on me all the time about how much strength I have yet sometimes people need to see the more vulnerable side in order to connect. I took that as a challenge. I began to write pieces that brought people in more. Not to many however because at times I still enjoy my space and I don't believe in allowing everybody to wear my colorful coat. I'm still working towards the forgiving spirit of Joseph. I'm not there yet.

I really want to encourage the females out there. I'm not gonna say women because I want to encourage girls as well. Goddess, Emporess, Woman, Lady, Queen these are the ways that I aspire for us to refer to ourselves and each other. We are so complex. Fearfully and wonderfully made. Yet in emphasizing the worth of everything around us we often forget our own worth.

There are some misconceptions concerning the actual event. It is NOT a gossiping forum or a male bashing session. I find it almost comical that some men tend to think that way when they see their wives, sisters, mothers, daughters, ladyfriends etc with an invitation. I can tell they don't know me. I love my brothers and protect them with the ferociousness of a lioness. I wasn't just bullshitting from the stage with pieces like 'Brotha I love' and 'I love him'. We need them as they need us. I would never be at this place in my life if it was not for their support, their honor, their respect, their beauty. So I praise the black man. To put it quite frankly for those who think our men ain't shit. Guess what? If they ain't shit we ain't shit! Get it through your head. We need to build together and we can't do that with animosity between us. Be aware, to pit the sexes against each other was also a part of the infamous lynch letter. A conscious effort was made hundreds of years ago to seperate us. Effort was made to undermine the manhood of the black man by having his woman and children look down upon him. For him to look down upon himself due to his inability to protect, support financially or otherwise, and to nurture his own family in the way he felt they deserved under fear of death. His death was then treated as a proverb and a byword. This poison still effects interactions between the sexes now and we need to overcome it to build. To bring us back to our thrones. However sometimes women still need their healing corner in order to feel our feminity and Queendom in it's fullness. For the brothers I pose this question, how can you truly be a King, feel elevated when your counterpart is not allowed to feel as a Queen? Not allowed something for herself. Sometimes women just need to get together cause lets just face it, sometimes brothers yall just don't get us. Yall try and husbands, brothers, sons, friends, Kings, we thank you. Still you must admit sometimes 'she' comes in and you're thinking to yourself 'what the fuck is wrong with her?' It's not always even that something is wrong. Women often provide a support system for each other and when it's positive 'she' florishes. To the brothers who allow us to get together in such a manner even though you don't get it, I thank you. Especially to my who allows the gathering to take place in our home.

Kings&Queens I just want to challenge you to love yourself better by loving each other better. Treat one another as Kings&Queens, Gods and Goddesses, should. Plant those seeds. Sow them so that in due season we can reap the benefits. With that I'm off. Time to hit the gym up....then again I might not make it out of my house until later. Either way it's all good. Keep it light meaning keep your energy bright like the sun. Peace&Blessings.

Amen.

i love attending the teas. thank you for hosting them. i feel that it gives us a better understanding of others and ourselves as reflected in others. it's also a great learning environment for myself. it's nice to be in a group diverse and supportive bunch of women and just talk. you never know another person's story until you listen.

I know. I'm discovering a lot of new things about myself and being challenged to grow. I'm also constantly attempting to find ways to make it better. Im just glad that others are getting so much out of it. Plus its cool that so far we havent had the exact same group everytime. Im so glad we bought this house too. Its the perfect space for this type of event.

`We inspire and encourage. You should come.

i will let you know when the next one is coming up. it'll be sometime late spring or early summer since and I are supposed to bringing the pot luck back for May.